Inner Conflict
~ the question has the answer
Returning home after my last exam yesterday, I thought, "writing my blog would be the first thing I would do after reaching home"... walking in the Sun, at exactly noon, and in such time of summer when the temperature is good enough to burn your skin out, I didn't want to think too much about other things... I have been waiting for my exams to end to get back to my favorite work. I had read a lot of classical literature, in true sense of both the words, and it was now time to write. As I walked towards the bus stop, I randomly formed about ten different beginnings for this post. It wasn't the weather, the heat was in my mind. I didn't even care to check my books, to reassure myself that I had done well, nor did I call up my parents to tell about it.
But as it turned out, It wasn't the first thing. In fact, I couldn't start writing until this evening. This is one thing which has been constantly happening to me... I have had a lot of ideas- some good ones, some not so good, and some bad... But, I was busy with exams, and sometimes i lacked energies and other times the will to type them down here... Also, i was, kinda waiting for something "perfect", like the best idea, or a "good" time to start writing... or rather restart. Then a thought crossed my mind... a disturbing one... which is still haunting me, and would do till i publish this one, and continue to write... they were a series of rhetoric questions, more than a mere thought... Can a writer make any excuse for not writing? Can he dare say that his mind (and/or even heart) is devoid of ideas or words? If he doesn't write, how then, is writing his passion and profession?
There may be two conditions when someone is unable to write, either there is a dearth of ideas, or a glut- so many that it is difficult to decide where to begin... I found myself, peculiarly, amidst the two... There is so much going on- in and around my life, that everything seems a good as a topic... But most of it is highly controversial , so the confusion deepens... (yeah, both- the things "in" and "around" my life have some or other controversial aspects... the degrees of controversy have high disparity, though... now kindly don't burden your mind with things I don't/wouldn't want you to assume).
What and how much to write? which topic first? why not the other? to write as a student, lover, journalist, or an Indian? to write an adventurous tale about taking a bit too many exams? or a love-tragedy or a romantic-comedy? or an article on the state of affairs? or a discourse on the so called "social movement" (or as other say "political drama")... the last one, of course, is with reference to the bizarrely exasperating social-cum-political agitation going on...
The answer, ironically, was a simple one... it so happens often, doesn't it? the more complicated the questions, the simpler the answers... I thought I would stick to the basics (that's what they recommend mostly "stick to the basics")... the basics, here, being writing a blog (where writing is defined as "The work of a writer", and a blog is "A shared on-line journal where people can post daily entries about their personal experiences and hobbies")... I may not necessarily put efforts to write an extraordinary, every time I sit to write, for the consciousness makes it more difficult a task...
So, personal experience it shall be... and hopefully, it would encompass all the topics I thought of writing on, as they all are somehow related to me and my personal experiences...
Didn't know that question will not only serve as a hint, but the complete answer.. how to write the blog? ------>just "write" the "blog"...
But every write-up (at least mine) would end up being some kinda story... and a story is a story- you may or may not want to believe everything... ;)
~ ~ ~ thus, I present to you, the Summer of '11. . .
